The Heart

Posted: February 4th, 2009 | Author: | Filed under: Thoughts | No Comments »

I just found on one of my favourite blogs following quote:

The heart itself is but a small vessel, yet dragons are there, and there are also lions; there are poisonous beasts and all the treasures of evil. But there too is God, the angels, the life and the kingdom, the light and the apostles, the heavenly cities and the treasuries of grace—all things are there. (St. Macarius, H.43.7)

The same quote was given to me by one of the monks who taught me many things about Orthodoxy on Mount Athos. It’s poetic and contains a deep truth. I do not consider to understand it but it expresses something I’m growing increasingly aware of. The heart is the vastest space we can find. It contains all the hope and fear, happiness and pain. Interested to find out what a pilgrimage is about, the question always returns to the journey of the heart. What does it mean when one goes “to find myself”? Isn’t it when we try to use the outer journey to force ourselves into an inner one? The forcing means that we try to avoid it. For my part, I try to avoid it by all possible means, it’s scary to face myself. I always though all is calm inside and the distractions of life keep me from becoming quiet but it turns out to be opposite: there are dragons, lions, poisonous beasts and all the treasures of evil. It’s scary to go there. It turns out that I try to find things to distract myself with in order that I do not have to face those dangerous toils of my heart and that the true mountains to climb lie there.

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